Sitting at the Miami airport and all I want to do is cry. I am worn and weary, smooth as stone. I play with words to avoid the jagged tears that have already begun to spill
over the edges of things. I let the sounds of song and surf soften me so that I might feel held closer to the center of something. And so…

2 things:
**this video of my last visit to the ocean earlier today
**this song that keeps me from drowning:

“Oceans”
You call me out upon the waters
The great unknown where feet may fail
And there I find You in the mystery
In oceans deep
My faith will stand

I will call upon Your name
And keep my eyes above the waves
When oceans rise my soul will rest in your embrace
For I am Yours and You are mine

Your grace abounds in deepest waters
Your sovereign hand
Will be my guide
Where feet may fail and fear surrounds me
You’ve never failed and you won’t start now

So I will call upon Your name
And keep my eyes above the waves
When oceans rise
My soul will rest in your embrace
For I am Yours and You are mine

Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders
Let me walk upon the waters
Wherever You would call me
Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander
And my faith will be made stronger
In the presence of my Savior

I will call upon Your Name
Keep my eyes above the waves
My soul will rest in Your embrace
I am Yours and You are mine

I love you, Carl. Let me not leave without you.

{originally published Dec 10, 2014}